happy cny
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4:06 AM on Tuesday, February 20, 2007 |
Haloscanhappy chinese year to all. today was good yesterday was good. nth fantastic though. today went to sze's house to gamble drink and all. won 100+ i think. hahha. the ever good luck in black jack never seems to fail me. after much compulsive gambling went on to tequila shots. drank till i was quite high and started talking and talking and talking non stop.
the same old ian cant stop talking once he is high. zzzzzzzzzz. ya its irritating by the way after some time. just like a bloody cock. tonight got to book in already. what life? actually there is none. so thats it. i even suck at dota as well. need to wake up my bloody idea soon.
somehow someway i feel like i'm living in a god damn dilemma. COCK!
not easy
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2:14 AM on Saturday, February 10, 2007 |
Haloscana taste on my week inside this week. hahahha. letsssss go
MONDAY- morning DRILL with regular squad, lesson after that all the way till lunch. MY OC nice one always say 15 min break in the end you can always add an hour to it. zzzzzz. slacker. get paid 4k a month to sleep. MOREOVER I DONT SEEM TO LEARNING ANYTHING!!!! nvm. most swee already, at night GOT police defensive tactics. all the way till 2130. best already man. i farted in class and i got pumped for that and i had to run round the dojo saying i am sorry. ya i know i am a drater. thanks.
TUESDAY-forgot what i had in the morning afternoon had lesson then its over i think. LOL. sleep.
WED- morning PT, shoik my knuckles bled again. manage to do 10 pull ups for that bastard. ya what now he want 12. after that lessons then half day leave because my FI wanna sleep. LOL.
thurs&FRI- GENG MC SONG BO barrack leave 2 days. whole day play PSP and talk to raymond. screwing around.
well thats as much as i can say.
for life....................................................................................
i'm wreck..............................................................................
nothing i do i seem to look forward to..............................
talking to people doesnt seem to help..............................
trying to be the funny guy doesnt....................................
i just feel really empty like everyday i wake up i see no reason. just like a blank bullet from the outside everything look fine and normal just like anyother bullet you wil see yet the inside being is empty. filled with nothing.
i really need to know what's that soon. real soon. before i really turn insane or cry.
can someone breathe air into me and give me an elixer to move on,
cause i am finding it harder each day to breathe out~
