great great day today!!!!!!!!! i met up with gel, wong, reth, josh today and we thrash this bunch of red headed ang mohs in dota today. ian's chen with 7 ursa warriors and 1 hellcaller running around. LOL! total ownage. then we met joel and ben then we drank at bishan park playing some games to it. i won the music game where we had to come out with song names without repeating the artist. darn cool. ahahaha. then of course i headed home. hahaha.

hmm that day i met up with ben at amk for some dota. it was friday and it was so obvious. friday equals to mos day for malays. i realise they are so different from indians. i was once trapped in farrer park there which is the owning area of indians it stinks there and i was trapped there for 2 hours after sending joc home from a movie but i realise something malays are worst. indians all smell the same but fuck many malays walked past me at amk that day cause the mos was there and each and every one of them smell differently man! each with distinct smelliness, can you imagine many of them each walking pass you for that fucking 10 min. OHMYGOD!!!!!!!!

oh ya no offence =]

listening to:goodbye to you/ the used


it will be good to know if i still have you by my side. =]

look at that pretty girl smiling. oh dear, she's my pretty friend called, jo. ok i'm typing like this is going to become some sort of fairy tale. oh well, how i know her, hmm bizzare, dont ask. let just say if you know me i talk a lot as in alot alot so there was this time in this camp where i was there and we got to know thanks to my talking. OK the talking doesnt refer to flirting. well jo is the only person i still kind of contact from the camp. well bizarre happenings of course continued as normal things dont other than the routine that people have daily of course like duh. she's like so darn sweet ya. she's very gregarious in nature, speaking her way into any conversation. hmmm this is like so going to be a personality report. LOL. like i said talking about yourself everyday on your blog is BORING! so i talked on people who may in my life that spark. =] she's like so great to talk with. hhahahahahha. and yes i love her. whahahahah. and yes that's my great friends jo and till date she's the 2nd person i blogged about. =]

listening to:avenged sevenfold/bat country

i dont wanna be an idiot and just go another gurl and forget you. you are simply unforgetable. i'm sure i can wait, i have waited so long. what's one day after another. =]


church was good. somehow i manage to get out of bed and made it in time for it. it was enjoyable especially seeing the big grow in SF. i was like wow. many many people. and everything pretty much change so much. aaron is in the army and there are small little kids round. and i just realise the new batch of SSFers are in and they are actually like 4? years younger than my batch. oh dear, we are seriously aging like no bothers business and to come to think of it that we ysed to be the youngest inside. Moses, Sam, Jon and myself went to the coffeeshop for lunch and it was all good. good clean talk and much catching up done. it was fun!!! hahaha.

we talk about the past as well, as about how we were and everything. never had such talks in such a long time. during service received a msg from a special someone. and realising that she was in church as well. to know that is great. and that really made my day. oh ya sorry i got back to you so late. =[

yeah that's all i guess. =]


oh dear oh dear i can't believe i almost cried listening to forever by hillsong. somehow or rather while listening to avenged sevenfold i switched to a christian song. i dont know why but i did. hmmm yeah the last time ian would have his heart melted and his eyes full of tears at any christian. he wont even mind doing anything to worship god.

the current ian is so fucked up i guess. does everything but god. thats quite sad. but well who cares. hahaha.

oh ya IAN LOVES REJECTION and its supposed to be his weakness in his character based thing, but well i used to be until being dealing with it so many mutiple times well it doesnt makes a difference well i guess if someone says yes it will be just great!

listening to: forever/ hillsong


i couldn't make you see it
that i loved you more
then will you ever know

listening to:bat country/avenged sevenfold


you mean a lot to me.

listening to:the blowers daughter/damien rice


yeah since we can't meet on sunday. well there's still so many other days to meet. but realising the fact that missing you is heartfelt pain. and i never know when i'll just drop dead.

listening to:on my own/ the used


today i saw her right along a road on a path and i caught a glimpse of her and yet when the bus moved away i started missing her and yet the urge of messaging her but yet afraid of deep rejection again. :'(

listening to:broken wings/alterbridge




tatoos? that's ben's 1st which is on his right arm. hahahahah. tribal.
tatoos to me are only define in 2 ways. fear and fantasy. fear of pain and fantasy of the pleasure of the art on your body. people have different perspective but i'm alright with it. hahahaha

and thats the one on his leg. hahahah.

and that's us wait for dear duffering dam while he continues to connect his tatoo. hahahahaha. great day.



listening to:downtomylast/alterbridge


got a woahhhhhh crowd reaction when i entered the premises of the 2nd floor of church where all was gathered before cny visitation. shocking! flabbergasted! astound!

know how it felt? it just felt warmed and great. many happy cny wishes from many people. saw everyone and realise i miss them. so like me i went talking talking and talking. lucky enough that i still have my old self of making a click od conversation fast still and have not grown quiet.

went round to people houses and even some that i didnt know. wow and i just realise the NEW sunday school transfers are too as well. wow they are like 6 bloody years younger than me and moreover i just realise something. roger batch had 5 guys,him, louis,chai heng,shao and shaun foo and in my batch there's five too, me,jon,sam,thng and danny and we were 5 years apart in terms of age and now realising that there's a batch of 5 guys as well 4 year younger than us moreover with similar characteristics. i just hope one doesn't come out screwed up like me. God bless him seriously.

after that i went to cut my hair with ben and gel before heading home to realise a great feast awaits me again. hahahaha.

let sunday be the valentine's day for both of us alright?

listening to:smack my ass/puddleofmud



oh dear oh dear. today i met my OLD and i mean really old church friend, diana. LOL! and we talk about i think everything. hahhahaha. realising the fact that in church we hardly even talk but as time resolutes wow it changes everything. maybe i matured? i dont know. suddenly we talk on the terms of the same side and its rather astonishing for me. i'm going to church tommorow not because i can get more red packets cause its cny visitation but i realise i'm missing the love and just the warmth of church friends already. how we really excited for every service and every event in church. how very thing that touched us when it was spark of a miracle of god. shockingly i realise i need god more than ever.

count the blessings, in church i found incredible buddies and as well as the warmth of it all. the family bonds that ties each one of us together. people change no doubt about that but is that really an excuse or a bigger excuse just cause all your buddies aint that anymore and you just lost all your motivation. this isn't a pure fact for a fact is determined by scientific reasons but for this, it's just an opinion. it's how you perceive it. well i'm heading for church tommorow no matter what. even if i have to be late.

and i just realise someone is damn cute. :)

listening to: trashed&scattered/avenged sevenfold <--- great song


today was out with ben, josh and odel and later gel came along for dota. hmmm i never realise this but ben has a emo button right on his left nipple. every time he presses it, he goes "i'm fat, ugly and no one likes me." LOL! that's really crap!!!!!!

we all laughed like pure idiots.

beer has lost his appeal to me already ever seen the overdose of alcohol on my bro's 21st birthday.

now i really need a valentine's day date and seriously and i'm not lying shi ying, you were the 1st to came to my mind mostly cause last year i had a great one with you but i guess things didn't really worked out but i will try harder this year, i promise.

listening to:mudshovel/staind


if i was a bad guy then each time when my friends get into trouble and tell me about it, i won't be the first to react but i always was the 1st and that's sad.

i want an ipod

listening to:scars/paparoach


blogging turns boring because all you ever do is just talk about yourself every single bloody day.thats why from now on, i'm going to other people, whoever that made that spark in my life.
first, i'm going to talk on odel, the greatest and bestest sister i have.odel hmmmm she very gregarious in nature and very sociable with everyone no matter who youare. though she might me younger than me, sometimes the advices that she gives makes me flabbergastedand makes me wonder why i didn't think of that. hahaha. and thats a fact not an opinion alright.i was suppose to write 1000 words but how could i describe such a great person in just that?it may even be insulting for its like saying to the person, "hey you are worth 1000 words",man that's awful.

it makes me sad to realise that she is leaving for god knows which country soon and just makesme want to spend more time with her. somethings you only cherish when you are about to loseit and that makes me feel like an idiot.
sis good luck for o's man!!!!!! and i love you!!! woohoo.

listening to:blind/lifehouse

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