hmmm many things to be done many many,

listing listing
-a nice memorable present for my sister odel before she flies away, =[
-a present for jas
- boxers for gel and ben cause for their birthdays apparently too long already
-my ipod nano
-new green/brown shoes
-many MANY T-ShirtS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
-go back to church
-a chalet with my buddies in a drink then we crack session
-play dota WITH ALL OF US
-meet up more with jas
-meet up with jocelyn(my sweet friend) a nice rose,charissa(my missing good friend) a cup,samantha(long time no see church buddy) hmm this one is hard,samuel(best friends for 9 years but missing in action currently, i mean me not him)hmm i still thinking
-JAM IN CHURCH WITH WEN YONG

the rest i'll just think about it and add in

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hmm alright seems long since i update well here goes.

on the way to hougang mrt to meet jasmine at orchard, i was on the bus 325, while i was it while it was turning into the interchange part or where ever was that, i noticed something that tickled me and yet quite true to the nature of humanity now. on a jeep there were 2 stickers that distinguished from the rest, the 2 that caught the eye of my attention. one stated "Take revenge, shit back on a pigeon" and "wife and cat missing, reward for cat $100", i laughed at the sight of it. but it seems true also if you notice the news heading around you though not saying that it literally is happening like that but something close i guess.

next fact!!!
according to sciencist and what i heard on the news and radio, they went, do you have a bookshelf in your bathroom or rather books for you to "enjoy" while your nature calls? many people tend to have the habit of reading while passing motion as also know of their way of diverting their attention to i also don't really know what actually. haha. but according to sciencist, this habit happens to be not very good, not concerning while passing motion can actually cause rectum cancer or disorder. though i have no idea what the hell it will be but the word cancer is even to illustrate what it means i guess, so NO reading while shitting. concentrate on shitting and stop doing other things or well things happen i would like to say. =]

listening to: metallica/unforgiven


even i cannot be the source to kill the sense of boredom in you.

tell me what can


i just need you in every and single way.

for what i thought i was pressured to have isn't that of an importance compared to you because i need you more.

listening to: paparoach/scars


life is great these days cause i found someone i loved, jas.

how i realise how not perfect i'm in not only various but uncountable ways. i can't be the one who can afford fancy diners every date, i cant be the person who can drive you around while you shop, i cant be the one who cant do really many things of what many can.

what i can be is just to pour out all i have for you and holding you tight and giving the best of me. i may be nosensical most of the time, making totally no sense at it being a big irritating fucker and bastard, i dont know why, is that just me? often i ponder upon wanting to love you every moment but i still become what i just named upon myself.

so its not a big fuck that i can get a distinction in my eng, so that cannot make a difference among us. what i can feel now and what i know now, all i can afford and yet all i can do is to love you and hold you tight. even on the hardiest time of your life you only see on footprint on that ground of sand because that's when i will be carrying you.

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my DISC test reminds me of my greatest weakest in life would be rejection, knowing that really make me realise that i really do either get my heart broken, self esteem drown, emotionally sad. but these days rejections became like a daily routine in my life before i knew you and somehow i got use to it, and i dont dare to do many thing as in really many, i'm afraid each time i try something i fail again.

i'm afraid, petrified. i got use to it by not trying anymore, i dont give my best in stuff already cause i assume i will just fail.

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i wont wanna fail with you, for simply i'm loving one that loves me too. that connection and great attraction makes me astound at my feet.

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let's stay together
thru alpha and omega
when nothing will make us more true
in the deepest and darkest time
let's shine thru and stay together.

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listening to: collide/howie day

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