3 things that made and destroy my day.

destroy
-alone
-lonely
-lonesome

made
-you(at least you still care to call and thats enough)
-odel
-buddies

hmm dota is just something to still get in touch with my friends and it sometimes helps kill the boredom when you aint there for hours.=[ understand k? =[


its good to know.

every word you said, everything you've done.

holding you every little moment counts deep down.

am loved

am loving.


some secrets lies beneath the deepest part in our lifes, something that you will never say anything to other people.

well i have mine too.

yup i like it when you tell me that you love me and everything that was sweet but i also need to feel it in person.

maybe i'm still not good enough.

many people stare at me or rather my hair not because i'm handsome or whatever, its just because its irritating and they find it a nuisance.


yes my dear sis.

well i have a useless life with no good friends. =]


i just remember that i wanted to post about this. its a sweet thing definately. =] oh ya, Sf bbq was great we ran around like mad dogs looking for food to play the chain game. whahah. well at first i thot none of my friends were coming and i assumed it. but well at 7, jas replyed me. moreover the bbq ends at 9.30 and i have to be home like at 10.30 so i didnt really thot she was coming already and she lives in bishan oh god and the bbq was at pasir ris. but she told me she was coming. shock? yeah you bet. her father sent her down all the way to east coast and we talk and talk and talk. and it was just for that 3 hours. thats really sweet. thanks. :D

listening: noots/sum41


okay, everyone lets apprehend the fact that adults who are aged 50 and above know nothing about us, teenagers. first and foremost, they never ever fail to think their always right in every and many areas. no matter what you are wrong.

okay lets move on with another thought of my provoked and insane mind, adults never fail to think in only one direction. lets instill a scenerio into this, adults think only 1+1=1 and no other explanations can prove them wrong while we also preceived that there's another way of 1/1=1 as well. see adults dont look 2 ways. one side and thats it. HELLO, you say that you are going to win TOTO today does it neccessarily mean you will win it. no duh, same rules applys to us.

they never seem to fail me in these kind of aspect though. kind of amazing that they will just be like that and change seem to fear them.

they always yak about not comparing you to your brother, but in my case they only thing they can say so that my bro will ultimately be the one in the greater advantage will be "cause he can study", please my dear "mature" adults, if thats comparison maybe your son or nephew here can purchase a certain OXFORD DICTIONARY for you to look at the in depth meaning to that word.

you then say you love us equally but then you say you can blame one for adoring one more because of affliation. moreover and you said i lied. take a mirror take a look at yourself and start readapt what you just said and reflect. and after you do and start crying well a teenager like me wont mind comforting an adult.

oh ya, i got fucking A2 for my eng, thats why my symbalisation makes you flabbercasted at your feet. or maybe this may just turn to the next holocaust in the family.

oh ya out of the topic, i'm getting to like jasmine flowers more, guess why? :P


you really want to trust someone really really much. but i really dont know how when i'm just dip into cold and hot water in and in again. the feelings gets good then it felt like shit again the next min.

i really dont want like stay in this world already but if it's not for that message from you, i will be hell long dead.

resolutions of year 2006
-quit smoking (done)
-study hard for the new course
-go back to church
-start serving again
-a for real relationship with...


you can only be jealous if you like someone


i was thinking its like you were born as a buddist, became a christian when you are at your puberty age and you are you are like so naive suring then, you parents may or may not object it. you are astonish by it. you become part of it and you think you found yourself some new friends. good friends in fact and yet every sunday you greatly look forward in meeting them. sharing about how the week had been and everything that clicks into a conversation in your group. and yet each time there felt like a different experience and yet everyone had the same belief and the yearn of god.

you feel as if you are part of a family, god's family and each week you raise your voices up high to praise him in spirit and in truth, each church retreat seemed to be looked forward more and more each time, heart yearn for hunger of god's word each week and then a suddenly incident draws you away from everything.

you dont believe anymore, you start to club, smoke, drink and waste your life like any other mother fucker would be doing. you start flirting around and you are succeeding in going after 3 girls at one time and you get the adrendaline rush out of it, you laugh at stupid jokes, you become insensible, you even dont give a shit about studies anymore. you have a girl that you have always loved for years but yet you go flirt around because she seems cold and you just fuck around life. you only think that you and your friends matter most. the rest are detest. and you just dont care.

well i wish i can have my 1st part of my life back. so that the girl i love would be right by my side.

where are you when i need you.

listening to: wake up/three day grace


watch beauty and the geek? i realise i'm match with the beauty and the SHIT= meaning me. duh.


you ever know how it stinks to tell someone you love her and yet response tentatively doesnt come back. but yet you know you will carry on liking her no matter what.

few days back, when i saw you how i wish i could hug cause in those situations i get tongue tied. but is it ever possible.

ann kok wants our poly class to go over to his place so he could cook for us. that guy never ever seize to amaze me. talks crap more than me yet a great friend.

i really dont know what to say actually.

welcome, just read.
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