religionical problem
Rambled at
6:44 PM on Saturday, March 04, 2006 |
Haloscani was thinking its like you were born as a buddist, became a christian when you are at your puberty age and you are you are like so naive suring then, you parents may or may not object it. you are astonish by it. you become part of it and you think you found yourself some new friends. good friends in fact and yet every sunday you greatly look forward in meeting them. sharing about how the week had been and everything that clicks into a conversation in your group. and yet each time there felt like a different experience and yet everyone had the same belief and the yearn of god.
you feel as if you are part of a family, god's family and each week you raise your voices up high to praise him in spirit and in truth, each church retreat seemed to be looked forward more and more each time, heart yearn for hunger of god's word each week and then a suddenly incident draws you away from everything.
you dont believe anymore, you start to club, smoke, drink and waste your life like any other mother fucker would be doing. you start flirting around and you are succeeding in going after 3 girls at one time and you get the adrendaline rush out of it, you laugh at stupid jokes, you become insensible, you even dont give a shit about studies anymore. you have a girl that you have always loved for years but yet you go flirt around because she seems cold and you just fuck around life. you only think that you and your friends matter most. the rest are detest. and you just dont care.
well i wish i can have my 1st part of my life back. so that the girl i love would be right by my side.
where are you when i need you.
listening to: wake up/three day grace
