And soon,
we'll rectify stories
that will accord us with something,
somethings we just can't deliberate
till we break down,
and let that inner/outer coherence
kill us.

SORRY abby, i know you sooo called me pass midnight, i was dead asleep. sorry a millions. i was having this worst headache of the year.

qoutes from that lovely songs (Step back),

The blades and the pills
They seize to ease my pain
So i just want to, fly away
Fly to heaven
Where angels stay

No one will mourn my living
And no one will really care

- out of topic

ohh so true isn't it

Its more like the sex and cigs seizes to ease my pain,
i rather be in hell.


well the chorus came at last, and this was how it went.

-Cont quotes from Step Back,

Would you turn from the edge
And take my hand
There's so much more to life
I want to show you
Please dont let death take us apart
There must be a way to mend your heart

Would you take a step back
Step all the way back
Till you reach my arms
Let me embrace you
We'll work things out
And take one pain at a time
Just know you have a friend right behind

=D

i've got thing feeling, this song saved my life. I hope it doesnt that reverting effect on you too BACKSLIDERS! WOOHOO!


Been a long while since i last blogged =D,

This time i am truly in love,
she brings the evergreen smiles,
she is unbelievable,
she is better than watching porn.

Her name is Hayley <3 (go figure it out) haha. =DD


Abby little sis, GOOD LUCK YOUR EXAMS, dont stress so much yeah. =DD you'll do just fine alrights. <3

And to all that give a shit, i have been aaaokay and thailand was good. Hope you all like what you got =D

Call me and i'll be your accompany anytime. <3


THE ESSENCE of the question - how are you?

it revolves around the crew like an weekly affair, how it sounds towards concerns or maybe - just a regular question embarking to the expecting answer of "yeah alright, what about you?"

I guess among every clique it takes place. In every clique there are conflicts. Like in the book, The Five People We meet In Heaven, it quotes ' Strangers Are FAMILY that you have yet to come to know'. Wow, how the author has actually look at this simple word and take it to just another level. But isn't that what we live for as well? To get to know more people each day is like a flowing issue everyone has.



On another note, i went to MASS service last sunday, wow. I would say thats one of the rare times i actually stepped into a church in a long while, moreover even listening attentively sometimes is really a miracle like WOW! I am feeling blessing recharged. HAHA.

NS liability is a fucking whore. Though not physically strainous these days, however it has shifted to becoming so much mentally. I'm glad to declare i am sick and i've got MC for today and tommorow. I need to rest. The relax smiling me is just a nice cover on the dumb book, while on the real note, i am mentally strained from the work i am receiving.

Not that no one asks, everyone do but why proclaim it.

This week will be worst, luckily on a note that the fat guy is back to work after 1 week on MC due to BACKPAIN. I mean how the fuck do you get that? You aint fucking pregnant or anything or maybe you are just generically Y. HAHA. And jeremy's on 1 week overseas over at australia. WOW covering his JOB IS NOT FUNNY balls. ITS A ALOT including MY OWN and moreover learning the FAT GUY's JOB AS well. Thats like IAN plus fat guy plus jeremy. That 1 brain for 3 jobs.THAT bitch fucking better promote me at the end of the year BALLS. I work my arse off for it. i DESERVE IT.

wow. overall, tmr i am going to work as well to do my poster for an event.

for now another song for you people with <3s,


Home
by Daughtry
album: Daughtry (2006)

I'm staring out into the night,
Trying to hide the pain.
I'm going to the place where love
And feeling good don't ever cost a thing.
And the pain you feel's a different kind of pain.

I'm going home,
Back to the place where I belong,
And where your love has always been enough for me.
I'm not running from.
No, I think you got me all wrong.
I don't regret this life I chose for me.
But these places and these faces are getting old
So I'm going home.
Well I'm going home.

The miles are getting longer, it seems,
The closer I get to you.
I've not always been the best man or friend for you.
But your love, remains true.
And I don't know why.
You always seem to give me another try.

So I'm going home,
Back to the place where I belong,
And where your love has always been enough for me.
I'm not running from.
No, I think you got me all wrong.
I don't regret this life I chose for me.
But these places and these faces are getting old.

Be careful what you wish for,
'Cause you just might get it all.
You just might get it all,
And then some you don't want.
Be careful what you wish for,
'Cause you just might get it all.
You just might get it all, yeah.

Oh, well I'm going home,
Back to the place where I belong,
And where your love has always been enough for me.
I'm not running from.
No, I think you got me all wrong.
I don't regret this life I chose for me.
But these places and these faces are getting old.
I said these places and these faces are getting old.
So I'm going home.
I'm going home.


hey mother fuckers, a song for you to quench your utmost disgusting need of music.

SAOSIN - I Can Tell There Was An Accident Here Earlier

Betray
The Avalon is always beside me
And I'm following it home
Where is my home
Orion glows
And his eyes open up
I once believed that I would set you in line

If only I had the strength you'd be completely accepting something else

If you keep asking me I'll melt away in the summer air
It won't hurt half as much and I'll beg for you to stop it now
If you keep asking me I'll melt away in the summer air
It won't hurt half as much and I'll beg for you just tell me something

The fluid through the alpha waves and power cables everywhere
Exercising self-control
The child calls
And he lies open
I would believe if only I'd been thinking at all

If only I had the strength you'd be completely accepting something else

If you keep asking me I'll melt away in the summer air
It won't hurt half as much and I'll beg for you to stop it now
If you keep asking me I'll melt away in the summer air
It won't hurt half as much and I'll beg for you just tell me something

If you keep asking me (keep asking me) keep asking me

If only I had the strength you'd be completely accepting something else

If you keep asking me I'll melt away in the summer air
It won't hurt half as much and I'll beg for you to stop it now
If you keep asking me I'll melt away in the summer air
It won't hurt half as much and I'll beg for you just tell me something

You swore
Out like my life
You cried
So I'm engaged to smile


THRICE - DEADBOLT

When deadbolts awake you from deja vu dreams,
At 4 in the morning you know where I'll be
Out running red lights asleep at the wheel
The sirens feed my nightmares.
I just close my eyes and I’m already there;
Its already too late.
I know its nothing but lies,
But they sound so sincere;
I find them too hard to hate.

And she calls from the doorway "stolen water is sweet,
So lets drink it in the darkness if you know what I mean"
And she calls from the doorway "stolen water is sweet,
So lets drink it in the darkness if you know what I mean"

And I’m almost sure
That I've been here before,
That this is not the first time I’ve stood in front of this door,
With an overwhelming feeling that I shouldn’t go in,
But it seems this is a battle that I never could win.

Right now!
My true love!
You call from the hilltop.
You call through the streets,
"Darling don’t you know,
The water is poison."
And I say!
"Come on and give me my poison."

What have I done…?
Is it too late to save me from this place?
From the depths of the grave?
We all are those ..
Who thought we were brave…
What have I done…?


laters~


Hey bitch, i aint your toygun,
i don't spray my anger,
you push too far,
i'll break you down.

Life's been tiring all together, work, the stress of work, family, the stress of family. How funny all of which turns to be vice versa. After all which i still have to face myself to more sparks of sarcasm from other people. WOW, how naturally my nick seems to be depress and you people can't see it.

If you do have myopia, please consult your nearest FUCKING optician idiot. Either that get your fucking body check on your 5 bloody senses which your kindergarten teacher laid those knowledge on.

Oh ya thanks ben for understanding. thanks for the note.

The everlasting draining speaker from the mouth of the devil in the house has been rather unbareable. The tendancy of pros and cons on sucidal and on culpable homicide amounting to murder draws near to the tiny veins on the main blood vessels that consolidate in my head. It will explode like peter will blow up in heroes soon. Just like that uncle who thought he was superman on the road soon i would be flying on the same draft line as well.

how ironic i looked and i laughed and now i am becoming one.
will you be the one to explain how anger/stress management is controlled?
but you are in a bigger dilemma.
i console to that defeat.
how am i see someone who similarise just like what i am.
the i talk all about my self you go fcuk off and die attitude.
how the tendacy of that someone asking if you're alright meant as precious as how many people commit in these dumb folly things.

hey 'family', you are bullshit yeah. you thank god in singapore you ain't allow to carry arms around. wow you should count that a blessing. oh ya count it, you are old, soon you will pop 6 feet under and i will help by saying bye. but so this brains thinks of more things to destroy. you just need some menopause pills bitch. get them watsons just down stairs. either that or you can go freeload from my mother who sells it anyway like what you always so.

and you dont shout like me like when i was 16. when i was stilla folly stupid son of a bitch who was worked as a maid at home. hey its different now, i will pop your bloddy god damn mother fucker ass into those bars asshole. now you are no more king. FOR I AM YOUR GOD BITCH. and you as well my favourite go find mother and get those pills for your period bastard.

oh ya on the lighter note, i am not so saddistic. RIGHT~


to that special someone i got to know - abby.

In life, we face many problems of which some are big and some are small. We tend to weight them on their importantance. Rememeber problems are there to strengthen us in a way or another. So brace up and look upon each as a good lesson learnt. Everyone have their sort of problems to face in life.

If there are no problems in life and this world is carefree, wont it just make us more dumb, less experienced and all soooo boring. So cheer up, maybe it isnt the right time, the right place and the right person. You pretty girl dont look upon it as a loss but a gain to exposure. Sure it was hard but you'll pull through and you'll be greater than ever. SMILE MORE, and EAT MORE. I promise you i will treat you to BA CHOR MEE at thomson alright.

This song for you by 30 Secs to Mars - ATTACK!

I won't suffer,
be broken,
get tired,
or wasted,
surrender to nothing,
or give up.
What I started and stopped it from end to beginning.
A new day is coming,
and I am finally free.

Run away, run away,
I'll attack.
Run away, run away,
go chase yourself.
Run away, run away,
I'll attack, I'll attack, I'll attack.

I would of kept you forever,
but we had to sever.
It ended for both of us faster than a--
Kill off this thinking,
it's starting to sink in.
I'm losing control now,
and without you,
I can finally see.

Your promises,
they look like lies.
Your honesty,
like a back that has a knife.
I promise you,
I promise you..
I am finally free.


loving you was on my own accord. and it wasn't going to start. so here i am saying bye.

Your subtleties
They strangle me
I can’t explain myself at all.
And all that wants
And all that needs
All I don’t want to need at all.

The walls start breathing
My minds unweaving
Maybe it’s best you leave me alone.
A weight is lifted
On this evening
I give the final blow.

When darkness turns to light,
It ends tonight
It ends tonight.

A falling star
Least I fall alone.
I can’t explain what you can’t explain.
Your finding things that you didn’t know
I look at you with such disdain

The walls start breathing
My minds unweaving
Maybe it’s best you leave me alone.
A weight is lifted
On this evening
I give the final blow.

[Chorus]
When darkness turns to light
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Just a little insight will make this right
It’s too late to fight
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.

Now I’m on my own side
It’s better than being on your side
It’s my fault when your blind
It’s better that I see it through your eyes

All these thoughts locked inside
Now you’re the first to know

welcome, just read.
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